I had planned to go to this years Anthrocon this weekend, but now am unable to because of some unforeseen things happening. First and foremost being the death of my great grandmother, who passed away in her nursing home this morning. She had turned 100 years old just under a week ago, July 2nd, and will sadly not be around to see the birth of her first great-great grandchild.
She and I were never very close, as her mind had already began to go by the time I was old enough to form any kind of bond. I would like to say that I at least miss her, but I really don't remember too much about her so doing so wouldn't be fully truthful.. To be honest, the fact that I feel so little for losing her is making me feel awful, as if I don't care as much as I should. My family, conversly, is devastated by the loss, thus all plans we had had for the next few weeks have been put on hold indefinitely.
So yeah, I'm a selfish piece of shit because I'm more upset about not being able to go to a con than I am about losing a member of my family.
On another topic of things that aren't happening, I want to apologize to those who have commissioned me. My new job is proving to be much more draining than I had anticipated, to the point at which I barely feel energized enough to work on my blossoming Warhammer 40k hobby, let alone work on commissions.
As stated before this recent death in my family isn't affecting me very heavily, and I still have the rest of this week off despite not needing it for AC anymore, so I should be able to work on the commissions I have in the next few days. I don't want to get anybody's hopes up though, as I expect things to change rapidly in the coming weeks in terms of plans.
In summary, I apologize for not being terribly active lately, and likewise in advance for most likely staying inactive for a while because things aren't looking up for me right now.